But Then God…


If you’d have told me 5 years ago that I’d be writing this post, I’d have laughed your head off. In fact I was just reminded today by a friend about a conversation we had 4 years ago about Motherhood. She remembers stuff I said apparently, (me not so much) but here’s the bottom line: Since Isaac was born 5 1/2 years ago I’ve had one HUGE no-no. One thing that seemed to define who I would be as a Mum when he got into school.  Something my friends all knew about me (yup it was a pretty strong conviction)

**** I vowed I’d never homeschool.

I come from a long line of educators on both sides of my family and wanted to leave it to the public school to educate my son.

But then God…

He broke in one day several months ago and quietly whispered that it’d be a good idea if I homeschooled.

I spent the next couple of months obediently ignoring it and not wanting to tell Tim. But then I did and he spent a while telling me I was crazy until finally we both couldn’t stand it anymore and we prayed. A lot.

When God breaks in there’s not much you can do besides pray and cling to Him.

** I can’t reason it out.
** I have no idea why.
** I’ve gone backwards and forwards with whether or not I can do it.
** I know it’s going to be a challenge and honestly I’m dreading winter.

But you know what?

I think that’s where God wants me….and you.

Totally and utterly dependent on Him.

2 Corinthians 12: 7-10
“Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn’t get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations…..

My grace is enough; it’s all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.

Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.”

When God breaks in ask Him if it’s because you need to lean on Him more and then pray.

Without ceasing.

What’s your “but then God….?”  I encourage you today to listen to that still small voice and ask Him if there’s anything that He’s wanting you to do. Walking in obedience sometimes is really tough but it’s where God wants me and you. I haven’t got this all figured out yet. In fact I started Monday and here’s what I put on my Facebook wall:

This morning we got up, got dressed and did chores. I walked into the bedroom putting the inevitable homeschool starts moment off. I quickly said, “Lord, have I got this?” and I heard His still small voice, “No, but I do!” Praising God for grace today!


  1. Dear Clair, Thank you for your post today. I really needed to hear (read) this. I needed to remember that God is in charge of our lives not us. And that I need to pray more always and especially when I am in need of his guidance.
    I love your blog and find many things that I am interested in. Thank you again
    Have a blessed day.

  2. I’m excited for you guys! Blessings- Jamie

  3. Charmaine says:

    You are going to do Great Clair!!!! Thank you so very much for sharing!! God Bless You!!

  4. This post is SO for me today!! I have actually been dabbling with the idea of homeschooling- DS was diagnosed with “educational” high-functioning autism by the school district, and attends special education classes there three days a week. He loves it there, but those around us along with my husband and I question if this diagnosis was appropriate, and I struggle internally with whether or not I believe traditional education is the right path for my son. When I read this post, is felt like it was pretty much written about me! I have brought up homeschooling once or twice to my husband, only to be told “DS shouldn’t miss the public school experience,” and let it go with that since I also fear not being able to handle homeschooling myself. Looks like I will be having this conversation with my husband again, and we will start praying on this! I plan to “homeschool” on the two days he is not at the school district’s classes, and maybe that will give me some insight! Thanks so much for this post!

    • Thanks Ashley for commenting, it meant a TON! As parents we tend to fear our decisions a lot but with God there’s only peace. Praying for you for that peace that passes understanding today! You know your son best!

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